What we are we owe to the fear of love

• 1. What is your best friends name? IDK if I have a best friend, but Tom is who ive know the longest.
• 2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now? BLUEE
• 3. What are you listening to right now? Led Zeppelin concert :)
• 4. Whats your favorite number? ive aways liked 23 for some reason.
• 5. What was the last thing you ate? hot pocket. oh man so unhealthy. but i drank water soo yeah, fuck u lol
• 6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? white or red or black or blue or green or yellow, or brown, lol idk i feel like i would get stuck with a funky one that would get annoying easy.
• 7. How is the weather right now? it is clear, feels kinda warm for being dark
• 8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone? Elibeth. and shes a punk
• 9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? face, then hips.
• 10. Do you have a significant other? NO i wish. im fucked up in the head. shes could be wifey material if i wasnt to scared of losing her. so i wont try. i couldnt handle rejection from her.
• 11. Favorite TV show? I dont watch that much TV but probably the late late show with craig ferguson
• 12. Siblings? 3 brothers and a half sister that i know of. my dad’s been around.
• 13. Height? 5 10 
• 14. Hair color? medium brown.
• 15. Eye Color? dark honey lol thats what she said
• 16. Do you wear contacts? no. but i could use glasses
• 17. Favorite Holiday? i dont know. they are all boring or depressing or just lame. but i like them all. maybe thanksgiving would be a little higher on the list, just because the cozy feeling of family. memorial, and veterans are my getting drunk holidays. lol
• 18. Month? february
• 19. Have you ever cried for no reason? nope theres always a reason
• 20. What was the last movie you watched? don juan de marco, with marlon brando and johnny depp
• 21. Favorite Day of the Year? IDK my birthday? not this year, since i was alone. probably the days that i get to see this one girl :) she really make life worth living.
• 22. Are you too shy to ask someone out? no not really, but it is hard to ask someone if they love me :(
• 23. Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)? yeah and then eat shit
• 24. Hugs or Kisses? both. but really hugs, or just being close to her for a long time without saying anything and looking at her straight in the eyes
• 25. Chocolate or Vanilla? chocolate
• 26. Do you want your friends to respond to this? yes! please do
• 27. Who is most likely to respond to a text from you? Everyone fails me  at one point or another. usually when i need them the most
• 28. Who is least likely to respond to a text from you? melissa :(
• 29. What books are you reading? school books? and catcher in the rye, because its an easy read lol
• 30. Piercings? none
• 31. Favorite movies? and the shooting, and car ones, drug dealing, and bad ass shit. and a few love stories, oh and the lion king, just cause if it makes me cry, it has got to mean something lol
• 32. Favorite football Team? Chiefs and JETS
• 33. What are you doing right now? these damn questions and listening to led zeppelin. should be doing homework
• 34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? buttah baby
• 37. Dogs or cats? dogs, i didnt grow up much with cats, they arent ever around anyway
• 38. Favorite flower? ehh
• 39. Been caught doing something you weren’t supposed to do? yeah who hasnt
• 40. Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex? not really. i just feel like no matter who or what, people are out to fuck you over
• 41. Have you ever loved someone? yes! like no other. 400 percent, complete submission. 
• 42. Who would you like to see right now? probably melissa. haha some of you might be catching a pattern here…. lmao!
• 43. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten? no.they are in another country
• 44. Have you ever fired a gun? today actually! :)
• 45. Do you like to travel by plane? yes it’s quick. but its expensive. and i dont have many places to go
• 46. Right-handed or Left-handed? right handed
• 47. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2. one in between my head and my arm, and the other one as a hugger
• 48. Are you missing someone? yeah… i think so. i wish i didnt
• 49. Do you have a tattoo? nope
• 50. Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? yes!! like every single girl in here!! <3 i love them all

Do this

• 1. What is your best friends name?
• 2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now?
• 3. What are you listening to right now?
• 4. Whats your favorite number?
• 5. What was the last thing you ate?
• 6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
• 7. How is the weather right now?
• 8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone?
• 9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
• 10. Do you have a significant other?
• 11. Favorite TV show?
• 12. Siblings?
• 13. Height?
• 14. Hair color?
• 15. Eye Color?
• 16. Do you wear contacts?
• 17. Favorite Holiday?
• 18. Month?
• 19. Have you ever cried for no reason?
• 20. What was the last movie you watched?
• 21. Favorite Day of the Year?
• 22. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
• 23. Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)?
• 24. Hugs or Kisses?
• 25. Chocolate or Vanilla?
• 26. Do you want your friends to respond to this?
• 27. Who is most likely to respond to a text from you?
• 28. Who is least likely to respond to a text from you?
• 29. What books are you reading?
• 30. Piercings?
• 31. Favorite movies?
• 32. Favorite football Team?
• 33. What are you doing right now?
• 34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
• 37. Dogs or cats?
• 38. Favorite flower?
• 39. Been caught doing something you weren’t supposed to do?
• 40. Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex?
• 41. Have you ever loved someone?
• 42. Who would you like to see right now?
• 43. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
• 44. Have you ever fired a gun?
• 45. Do you like to travel by plane?
• 46. Right-handed or Left-handed?
• 47. How many pillows do you sleep with?
• 48. Are you missing someone?
• 49. Do you have a tattoo?
• 50. Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with?

BABY!! I PROMISE I WILL CATCH YOU. BE FREE WITH ME. IM REAL, I DONT CARE ABOUT HOW MEAN YOU ARE OR HOW MESSED UP YOU THINK YOU ARE, BECAUSE BABY, IM ABOUT THE SAME. THATS WHY I WANT YOU. THIS IS SOMETHING SPIRITUAL IM FEELING. YOURE MY BEST MISTAKE, THE GREATEST LIFE COINCIDENCE. FA REAL DOE

BABY!! I PROMISE I WILL CATCH YOU. BE FREE WITH ME. IM REAL, I DONT CARE ABOUT HOW MEAN YOU ARE OR HOW MESSED UP YOU THINK YOU ARE, BECAUSE BABY, IM ABOUT THE SAME. THATS WHY I WANT YOU. THIS IS SOMETHING SPIRITUAL IM FEELING. YOURE MY BEST MISTAKE, THE GREATEST LIFE COINCIDENCE. FA REAL DOE

Fucking sykkee on that cougar lol I don’t even the last time I got laid yo! Lol

whaaaaa?

this older chick totally wants my dick. i feel flattered, weird, but also super horny. hahaha She straight up told me to go give it to her. so im about to sneak out hehehe. this will be fun :)

Surrounded by pain

I never thought you would say don’t go I need you when I was wearing a grey face. I guess I don’t blame you. But if you only knew what I had envisioned. Maybe could have blown you away, or maybe it was a picture only for myself. I don’t know how all of this started but I sure do want to see it through. I always tried to find the deepest meaning, I ended up drowning in myself.

Surrounded by pain

I never thought you would say don’t go I need you when I was wearing a grey face. I guess I don’t blame you. But if you only knew what I had envisioned. Maybe could have blown you away, or maybe it was a picture only for myself. I don’t know how all of this started but I sure do want to see it through. I always tried to find the deepest meaning, I ended up drowning in myself.

its really killing me thinking about if i should emotionally invest myself with this one girl i know.

I mean, shes soo beautiful i think, she has a great personality and everything… i just freaking want her so bad. I wish i knew how she felt about me before i went any further. she is trouble for me. i could end up killing myself over this girl, or doing something very very very stupid. all i think about the whole day is her! in from the morning til night.. and shes even in my dreams. i am so haunted by her. I dont even know what is this that i feel for her. it could be love but that might come short. i want to go beyond that with her. you know… like dying together. This thing im feeling is not conventional, it is not practical; its fucking dangerous. its the thing that everyone warns you about not you feel. And it’s like i can accept it, i know i shouldnt feel this, that its wrong. but i cant fucking help it. Im always in my little dream world and she is so realistic, she grounds me. that is what i need. I just need her around me all day. a whole day with her, is not near enough. If im not with her, i walk around and drive like if i had a death wish, nothing else matters, and death does not bother me. fuck! someone please help me!!!